A year ago today...

Today marks the one year anniversary of living back in Colorado. On September 9, 2006 I left Nebraska to follow what I felt was God's direction and next step for me. There were so many steps that even led up to that. Steps of preparation, things that I had to release from my sometimes clenched fists. It was a process and it remains a process still. Life is the means, the end is to follow my maker with heart, soul, mind and strength.

Thank you, My God for bringing me back here. Thank you for every day of the past year when I've felt hopeless and wondered what was next. Thank you for giving me a church and people to connect to. Thank you for Hope House, for the girls and everyone who works there. I know that I am so blessed to be there. Thank you for provision at just the right moment. You know what I need and when. Thank you for a place to live: First at dad and Suzi's, then here in my own place. I could not have imagined this place to exist, but you opened the door wide for me. Thank you for continued opportunities with music, and that it never looks quite like I imagined it to, but it's always so good. And the priviledge of worshiping you is enough in and of itself. Thank you for telling me to wait and then giving me the hope to do so. You have confirmed so many things that I re-affirm my committment to you. I will wait as long as you tell me to. Thank you for peace in my heart. Thank you for showing me the difference of when it's you leading and when it's me trying to gain control. I am much more at peace when it's you and this is beyond a complete understanding or explanation, but I know the difference now.

"Lord, enfold me in the depths of your heart; and hold me there, refine, purge and set me on fire, raise me aloft until my own self knows utter annihilation"

A prayer of Pierre Teilhard de Chardin and one that I pray tonight

I could not have done this without you. I can't live tomorrow, the next day, week, month or year without you. In fact, my next breath is a credit to you, so help me to be mindful of that, ready to live in a way that reflects that very fact.

You have all my love, my savior, my God.

I say this to you in gratitude and thanks.