Ode to the Changing of Seasons...

I don't know if this is really an ode, but nevertheless, I write. For the past few years, I've really struggled with the changing of seasons from Summer to Fall and Winter. I think one reason is because at heart I'm a California girl. I love the heat and sunshine, and although we moved to Colorado when I was 7, we still have over 300 days of sunshine here, too. I just begin to feel different when those fall winds come. It kind of messes with me, and I hate it, but it's my reality. I truly just feel DIFFERENT. Right now we are definitely in between. Tonight I went for a run. The temperature was perfect, but not too far down the road and I smelled the smell of smoke, a fireplace. The smell of winter, and I penned this to that effect.

breathing in the tell-tale sign

You may arrive-although not today

Seeing by the leaves all tousled in the trees

Something's in the wind-not ready to begin

I know that...

this is the in between

you can't decide

When you'll land

or how long you'll hide

This is the in between

snowflake or shine

leaves me feeling

like a leaf about to fall

and I will rise or fall with you


What makes you change the way you do?

So unpredictable, wish I could wrap my arms around you

Usher in another season and the signs of change

This is not how you make me feel

Do you know how you make me feel?


Could I but learn to accept that this is how it is

This is how it will be as much as I can forsee

Then I could enjoy the moments of unknowing

Knowing that change not now will still be

So I see that...


this is the in between

you can't decide

When you'll land

or how long you'll hide

This is the in between

snowflake or shine

leaves me feeling

like a leaf about to fall

and I will rise or fall with you