If I had a dollar for every time...

As I was saying, If I had a dollar for every time someone has suggested that my husband is probably waiting for me down in Colorado, well, I'd have at least $20 bucks in my wallet by now! But you know, with gas prices the way they are, that would only get me as far as Cheyenne! And to think I was SO close to married bliss! How Sad.

Seriously, though...what's the deal? Is this some kind of random prophecy, or is it just nice old ladies trying to make me feel better about being 28 and single (I didn't know I felt bad!). Whatever the case, I'm feeling antsy to go. And no, not because Mr. Man is scaling madly up and down the Rocky Mountains to find me, but thankfully because I feel the pull of God. For all I can tell, in spite of my tears of leaving Alliance and Nebraska in general (it really grows on ya after 9 years), there is something deeper pushing me on, and so I will go...wherever.

Lord, I am excited for this journey. I feel it's you, and so that is enough.

I end with this advice that has meant a great deal to me in the last couple of months of discerning: by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

Patient Trust

Above all, trust in the slow work of God
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We should like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way to
something unknown, something new.
And yet it is the law of all progress
that it is made by passing though
some stages of instability-
and that it may take a very long time.

And so I think it is with you.
your ideas mature gradually-let them grow,
let them shape themselves, without undue haste.
Don't try to force them on,
as though you could be today what time
(that is to say, grace and circumstances
acting on your own good will)
will make of you tomorrow.

Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming within you will be.
Give our Lord the benefit of believing
that his hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.


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O God you are my God... and step by step you'll lead me and I will follow you all of my days...